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Ive been putting this tumblr post off for a while on purpose. I know youve probably been upset with me, but I told you it was gonna be a long one. But it was for this particular day. For those reading that are not Delores, today marks the 6th month of the start of our relationship. To most, that would mean virtually nothing, but to us, it means the world. we never thought it possible for us to make a relationship. We never thought it would work out. We tried and tried, but to no avail, it would always fall. We were both stubborn, hard headed, and couldnt seem to find solid ground, despite our feelings. We eventually came to a point and said that we had exhausted all options, but there were too many obstacles for it to work. We stopped talking, and gave up hope.

One day, I went to work, and as I was doing my job, I realized that no matter how hard I tried or fought, I couldn’t get you out of my head. I couldnt stop replaying memories, or phone conversations, or video chats we had. You had engulfed me once again. But this time it was different. It wasn’t the “oh, I miss you, come back” kind of thoughts. It wasn’t the “I wonder whats new with her life” kind of thoughts. It was the “I cant live without you anymore” kind of thoughts. I hated myself. I hated that this person, whom I cared so deeply for, had removed herself from my life as a result of my own actions. I had hit an all time low. I lost my best friend, and the one I wanted to be with for the rest of my life. My mind kept racing and I found myself checking your facebook every break. Going through all of the photos I kept of you, and sheding tears when no one was around. I decided by the end of the night that I couldn’t go home, and hope it got better the next day. I knew I had to give it one last shot. So, at 3:30am, I sent my text, in hopes and prayers that you would believe me. The next morning, I recieved the greatest present blessing anyone couldve ever recieved. A reply.

I still cannot pinpoint the exact moment this relationship we have started working, but all I know is, im so incredibly blessed that it is. You have become more than just my best friend. You are my rock, my sunshine, and my world. You bring out the best in me, you encourage me and support me in everything I do. I never thought that love like this ever existed, little alone, happen to me. In the cheesiest way possible, you complete me Del. I finally feel that my heart is complete.

You are my greatest blessing. To be with you is the best thing that could ever happen to me. You will never know how much you mean to me. You have made me a better man, and a better boyfriend. I will never be able to repay you for all of the amazing things that you have done for me, or the things that you do for me every single day, but what I can promise you is that I will devote the rest of our lives to being the best boyfriend/ husband I can be to you. I promise to be here for you, and our family, and to be the best provider, lover, protector, and father I can be. I love you more than words can describe. Happy sixth month anniversary angel. I love you.

Fun Fact: For the entirety of my fourth grade year, me and my best friend went around reciting this entire thing back and forth. Every. Single. Day.





We’re officially going to start our lives together in six months, and as such, I think we should make God an active part of our life together. We should always make an effort to pray and read and study the word every single day. Whether it’s every night before bed, or its every morning during breakfast, I think our life should include daily devotions to God. We should start together and make a point to do this every single day, no matter what. I think we should make it kind of an event, maybe go somewhere special before you move up and pray together for the first time. Maybe pray together and ask God to bless our growing relationship, and ask him to help us focus our life and our relationship around him.

We’re officially going to start our lives together in six months, and as such, I think we should make God an active part of our life together. We should always make an effort to pray and read and study the word every single day. Whether it’s every night before bed, or its every morning during breakfast, I think our life should include daily devotions to God. We should start together and make a point to do this every single day, no matter what. I think we should make it kind of an event, maybe go somewhere special before you move up and pray together for the first time. Maybe pray together and ask God to bless our growing relationship, and ask him to help us focus our life and our relationship around him.


So many times I hear people telling stories about their boyfriends or their relationships and I just think to myself, “why settle for THAT?” and it makes me realize how special you are. Men like you don’t exist often, especially for my age group. Respectful, hardworking, loving, strong, responsible, selfless. The list goes on. I hear my friends telling stories about how their boyfriends ditched them on their date and not even call or text to tell them about it because it was “drinking night with the boys” and they stay with them because these boys say “baby, let me show you I’ve changed.” How much change could you really go through in the time it took to fight about that? And these fights happen weekly. Constantly breaking up and getting back together insisting THIS TIME I’M NOT GONNA TAKE YOU BACK IF YOU SCREW UP. 
Why would someone go through the agonizing process of “well he did that so I’ll see how he likes it”? It makes me realize how truly special our relationship is. Not many people our age have a solid plan for the future, or a system of working things out. But mostly, not many girls are blessed with such an incredible man in their lives. I am so, so blessed to have you loving me and working things out with me, and making a life with me. Everyday I realize more and more how rare it is to find someone as special as you. I love you so much. You’re my dream come true. No one else has an amazing man to call their own like I do. I hope you realize how much you mean to me and how grateful I am for the little things you do, the big things you do, and the fact that you pay attention to me at all. You don’t have to try to be such an outstanding person, but you are anyway and I am so happy because of it. I dont know what I would do without you.

So many times I hear people telling stories about their boyfriends or their relationships and I just think to myself, “why settle for THAT?” and it makes me realize how special you are. Men like you don’t exist often, especially for my age group. Respectful, hardworking, loving, strong, responsible, selfless. The list goes on. I hear my friends telling stories about how their boyfriends ditched them on their date and not even call or text to tell them about it because it was “drinking night with the boys” and they stay with them because these boys say “baby, let me show you I’ve changed.” How much change could you really go through in the time it took to fight about that? And these fights happen weekly. Constantly breaking up and getting back together insisting THIS TIME I’M NOT GONNA TAKE YOU BACK IF YOU SCREW UP.
Why would someone go through the agonizing process of “well he did that so I’ll see how he likes it”? It makes me realize how truly special our relationship is. Not many people our age have a solid plan for the future, or a system of working things out. But mostly, not many girls are blessed with such an incredible man in their lives. I am so, so blessed to have you loving me and working things out with me, and making a life with me. Everyday I realize more and more how rare it is to find someone as special as you. I love you so much. You’re my dream come true. No one else has an amazing man to call their own like I do. I hope you realize how much you mean to me and how grateful I am for the little things you do, the big things you do, and the fact that you pay attention to me at all. You don’t have to try to be such an outstanding person, but you are anyway and I am so happy because of it. I dont know what I would do without you.


I never want to be without you.

I never want to be without you.


"I just have these deep feelings for you."

I don’t even know where to begin. Where do I start? From the moment we started talking, I couldn’t help but fall for you. From day one, talking on the phone, I was flirting and smiling like a little schoolgirl. Youre voice was music to my ears. We were talking, and you were singing and I was head over heels in love. We are meant for each other. We’ve had more hills and valleys in the time we’ve known each other than a tennessee road map, but everything that we have been through, its only made us stronger in the end. Im so glad that this is working. We are working it out. We are talking everything out, and laying an amazing foundation for the rest of our lives. Im so anxious to move to you, and start the beginning of the most amazing times in my life.

You dont know what you mean to me. You will never begin to understand how grateful and blessed I am to have you in my life. Ive made mistake after mistake, ive caused you pain after pain. But yet, you still loved me, and still wanted to be with me. I will never be able to make up for the pain and suffering ive caused, but I PROMISE you, it will never happen again. Im here, and im more in love with you right now than I have ever been in my entire life. It just keeps growing. Im so glad you’ve been so understanding and you’ve stood by and helped me get back to my feet so to speak. I promise ill be right here, forever and ever. Ill be right by your side, no matter what. Were gonna get married, and have a wonderful family, and every night, no matter how bad the day, we’ll have each other to hold and cuddle up to in our comfy bed.

Delores June, I love you to the moon and back. You are my soulmate, my princess, my wife, and my best friend. I love you. Forever. I promise to be yours and only yours til the day I die. You’ve stolen my heart, and nobody deserves it more than you. Youre my zing Der. Forever.


Thoughts On Your Matt Walsh Blog Facebook Post. You can read it while you’re pooping. :)

Some very good points. VERY good. Yet, I’m going to expand on this a little bit. Mr. Walsh is writing from the view of, “If you believe what you like in the gospels, and reject what you don’t like, it is not the gospel you believe, but yourself” (St. Augustine). True, but here’s my issue with his writings, first of all, he says that Joel Osteen and his wife are heretics BECAUSE of the fact that they represent Americas Christians. He cites many examples of what the CHRISTIANS he has known have said, believed, or used faith to explain away their sin, and claims they are proof of Osteens terrible message, when he doesn’t prove that these Christians cite Osteen. They probably don’t even listen to him.

“My faith is all about making me happy and comfortable” (Mrs. Osteen) is absurd and insanely heretic, and Walsh has a great idea pointing this out. Yet, he doesn’t expand on the OSTEENS preaching that makes them heretics, he expands on how THE VIEWS OF THE PEOPLE HE HAS KNOWN makes the Osteens heretics. There is no actual statistics or report findings. A lot of what he’s blogging is actually just this basis of “knowledge he presumes to be true” about America. Here’s what I mean:

“Pornography, abortion, divorce, gay ‘marriage’—all are justified with the kind of rhetoric Mrs. Osteen used” (Walsh). This fact is merely supposed to be accepted on the basis of his confidence. There is no actual information, about how the OSTEENS rhetoric inspire this idea. The only thing we get is a 50 Shades of Gray anecdote, proving his point because he has heard ‘as a moderately successful blogger,’ people defend their sinful habits of reading this book with a “happiness-centered” idea of Christianity. This is not relevant at all. No actual information about how the Osteens have inspired people to read 50 shades, or how this even relates to their justifications of abortion, divorce, and gay (and here he almost sarcastically air quotes) “marriage.”

Now his points are spot on, “none of these people will ever publicly acknowledge Christianity’s command that we deny ourselves, pick up our cross, and follow Christ up that hill to Calvary.” They whine about their happiness [not Gods] and cheerily* pick a few isolated out-of-context Biblical passages to support their unique interpretation of the Christian message” (Walsh). Yet, what is Christianity’s command? “Love the Lord with all your heart… (Matthew 22:37). “Love thy neighbor as you love yourself.” (Matthew 22:39). The main message of Christ is to follow him (Matthew 4:19), live a life full of love (Matthew 5:39-41), seek first the kingdom of God (Matthew 6:41), and JUDGE NOT (Matthew 7:1). That one is very important yet overlooked so it needed to be written here.

 “Ask and it shall be given to you…(Matthew 7:7) “Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls (Matthew 11:28-30). “Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” (Matthew 17:20). These are the basic preachings of the Osteens, in a nutshell. Walsh is correct in saying that the Osteens preach a life of “comfortable living” and they DO preach a message that brings immediate happiness, health, and “wealth to all who follow it”. He is VERY correct in saying that it’s dangerous. Because, when you leave your “church” every night thinking that Christ is very concerned with your personal happiness rather than the well-being of your soul, that’s a problem. Very many times Osteen does preach on the idea that “if you have the faith to believe it, God’s gonna bless you with that new (house, car, job promotion, you pick it).” Walsh is correct in saying that our nation wants a shallow gospel that doesn’t challenge us to make sacrifices, and be righteous”.

Here is what I know about Joel Osteens preaching, and this is important because with all the bashing the guy receives, it is IMPORTANT to recognize the high points, if only for a rebuttal and refutation. Joel Osteen inspires people to be good, nonjudgmental, and full of faith. He is a fantastic motivational speaker. He has the power to tell millions of people whatever he wants because they are so focused on his watered-down messages as a CENTERPIECE to Christianity, rather than something to take IDEAS from. Osteen preaches that people should believe, and so shall it be. And, while the bible says that, it wasn’t meant as a personal wealth promise. In fact, I have never heard Osteen preach on the importance of (and here, you know is my favorite bible quote) “Learn to do right; seek justice. Defend the oppressed. Take up the cause of the fatherless; plead the case of the widow” (Isaiah 1:17). I have not found one piece of evidence of Osteen donating to Charity. I only found this quote, “He has not taken a salary from his Houston megachurch for two years. He owns one house — the same one he and his wife, Victoria, have lived in for 13 years — and until recently he drove a 9-year-old car he inherited from his late father. Osteen pays his own hotel bills, and there is no private jet.” (Askville by Amazon). He doesn’t steal from people, he doesn’t request that people ‘pay money’ to be saved. But he definitely doesn’t preach condemnation, and he doesn’t preach the law, which is why the angry Christians hate him.

The problem with Osteen is that he often doesn’t preach Christ. He preaches a gimmick. Here’s the basic map of all his books “random number” ways to “do something to drastically change your life.” He is a motivational speaker, who uses bible verses of faith to help people better themselves. It is a VERY human-centered message. Yet, if people took it for what it is, I don’t think it would be that bad. People should have faith that is bold and unwavering. That’s what Osteen has taught me. But thinking back, that’s really all that I’ve really learned, because that’s all he has repetitively preached on. He preaches on “being good,” which a lot of condemnation, and even “grace” preachers often overlook. It’s an important message.

Preachers often overlook the similarities between what they mold Christians to be and the selfish, hypocritical and hateful ways of the Pharisees when Jesus called them out specifically to address these very prominent reoccurrences within religion.

I am going to capitalize this because it is the most important thing I will say: “IF PEOPLE TOOK OSTEENS PREACHINGS IN THE SAME WAY THEY *SHOULD* TAKE EVERY PREACHERS TEACHINGS, IT WOULD NOT SEEM SO ‘HERETIC’”. If people would not put ALL of their faith in one man, but instead listened to the message, gave it a decent amount of thought and consideration, and then prayed on it, and read the word about it, the nation’s Christians would not be so watered-down and blind as they are. There are wolves in sheep’s clothing among the flock. They preach hate and condemnation without preaching the love of Christ. They do not defend the fatherless or plead the case of the widow. They defend their cult-like ideas that God is AN ANGRY GOD full of hate, and so Christians should be too. They preach that OUR DUTY AS “CHRISTIANS” is to show everyone and tell everyone how righteous we are, and how righteous they need to be “lest they burn in the fiery pits of hell.” Instead of acknowledging the true teachings of Christ which were centered on self-sacrifice and humbleness, and “letting your light shine.”

In short, there are worse preachers out there.


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